More poems by Jackary Barakitten

Secrets

I am silenced
I am outspoken
I am ignored
People there to listen
Don't want to hear it
The sob stories, the pleas for help
Speak out if you must
But, please, don't speak up.
They don't want to hear me
So I'll blend into the walls
Of their little fantasy worlds
You have your cliques
And I have mine
With Me, Myself and I
I won't speak
To anyone but the voices within me
Who tell me to say it loud
And say it proud
They tell me to stand up
And scream it like I mean it
And they can't believe
That this is how I wanted it.
Who are they to tell me what I mean by it?
I need to send out a warning
But to them I am only a liar
Jealous of what they have
(Because I don't speak up.)
The only way I have to express myself
Without mistaken words
Only gives me still shots
I have no life to breathe into them
No ways to tell my silent story
People know not who I am
Who I want to be.
And they don't want to know
So they put me on mute
Ignorance is bliss, after all
And pain is the truth
My truth.
They have their stories
About who they think I am
And who they think they are
And I have my truth
Of everyone in the world
But shh...
It's our best kept secret
And your worst enemy.
I am silenced.
I am outspoken.
I am alone.