would you have any regrets?

if only you knew
that I have blades hidden in my room
scars, on my body, all scattered
that my sickness is because of my gloom
oh if only you knew, would you be flattered?

if only you saw
my childhood slip away from me
the smile wipe off my face
the things that I see
it all, you would be filled with disgrace

if only you heard
what all my "nice" classmates call me
me cry myself to sleep
my calls, begging to be free
oh how your stomach would ache deep

if only you felt
the pain I feel each day
what I feel when I cut deeper and deeper
the guilt that rots my day away
what I felt, your legs they would tremble as you got weaker

if only you knew
the pain I go through each day
the looks of disgust I get
just to keep the questions away
all the pain I go through, would you have any regrets?

Poem by Hidden-Behind-Scars

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