Save Me From Myself
Here I am standing in the rain,wishing and hoping that it would wash away the pain.
Not sure what to do or who to turn to.
It's really hard to think with all this stuff I'm going through.
Luckily I have friends though,
and they probably know more than you know.
But I don't want to be a bother,
and I especially don't want to go to the church's father.
I know it's bad to bottle up how you truly feel,
but it's probably too dangerous for them to even reveal.
Sometimes it' best to keep them hidden,
for the fear of saying or doing something forbidden.
But soon all the feeling in you will be too much,
and you'll be left with your heart and life to clutch.
The pain becomes unbearable,
Fuck, then the pain is just gets more terrible!
The darkness soon embraces me,
probably Hell is where I'm truly suppose to be.
My life that I grasp in my hands are slowly slipping,
while my heart in my chest keeps ripping.
This is probably what life had in store for me,
wanting to cry out in plea.
Wanting my tears to spill out until I can't cry no more,
wanting me to go insane for this pain is too hard to ignore.
I grab the knife from the drawer,
wondering 'Why didn't I do this before?'
I set the knife on the counter suddenly realizing I had forgotten to write my suicide letter,
this way would probably be better.
Let them know what my last words are,
because I soon won't be near, but instead I'l be far.
'Dear family and friends,
my life has finally come to it's ends.
I could no longer take the pain,
for it will forever leave my heart a terrible stain.
All I can tell you that is, it's to hard to explain.
I love you all,
and please keep standing tall.
I'll never forget you guys,
well, I guess this it where I finally say my 'good byes'.
Please stay strong,
my finally wish it that all of you know what I did wrong,
and so please don't follow along.
Don't follow what I'm doing,
you have so many dreams that needs pursuing.
Even though I'm not here where you wish I were to be,
please promise me that you won't do what I did... Please? For me?
That's all I ask,
please do this simple task.
I will always be watching over you,
and I will try my best to guide you with what your going through.
I love you guys always forever,
and ever.'
(C) Mary Grace Danica Casiryan Anciado
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