Taste of Suicide.

My dreams are filled with crimson
Everything in a sepia tint
I wake up screaming loudly
But the damage I will not forget

I watched you take your life
Standing there in a dreamlike state
Blood flooding everywhere
It seemed my help came too late

You were always so amazing
Filled with hope and love
But nothing could prepare me
For what awaited in that tub

My instincts told me to run
My love told me to stay
I knew I should call somebody
But I didn’t know what I would say

I sucked in to scream,
But the taste that filled my lungs
Was so repulsive, so dark
I can still taste it on my tongue

The taste of reckless suicide
Painful, selfish and cold
You didn’t bother to lock the door
Or just get some help like you were told

Tremors rocked me from deep within my chest
Could you imagine how terrible this would feel?
I grabbed your lifeless hand
Begging for it not to be real

I stayed for what seemed like days
Until the ambulance finally came
They pulled me flailing from your lifeless body
Lying and saying things would be ok

Your funeral was near impossible to bear
I didn’t know what to say
I looked out at the faces,
No one’s life should end this way

We were best friends
Just two kids who fell in love
But the dark you canceled so well
Your solution was undreamed of

When you pulled that fucking trigger
You stole more than just one life
I will never be the same
Now I can only find relief with in a knife

The end of your hell on earth
Lit the spark that started my own fire
And now it’s raging out of control
With suicide its ultimate desire

[I know its not great, but this one really meant a lot to me. Please, any feedback is appricaited.]

Poem by simplyswenson

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