The Night He Said Goodbye (His Suicide)
I sit alone in the bathtubHolding my knees to my chest
Trembling silently in the darkness
Letting out shaky little breaths
The hum of the heater soothes my nerves
As I close my eyes and forget
About the fighting, the screaming, the blood, the gun
And all those things he said
He died and its killing me
Remembering what he said
His words, the pain seeping into his voice
Spreads wildfires through my head
"If you don't love me I guess I'm better off
Dying anyway''
I tried so hard to stop him, I tried
But there was nothing I could say
I feel like the blame rests now
On my shoulders, it happened because of me
That's why I'm so down lately
Smileless and empty is the way I'm supposed to feel
Every day is drenched in pain
Because of his death
Every air-filled gasp
Is countered by a shaky breath
Every word I say
Everything I think in my mind
Is him, is his blood
Is that scary look in his eyes
The night he said goodbye
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