Dear Daddy

Dear Daddy,

Why did you have to leave so soon? What did I do wrong? Was it all my fault you're gone now?

I was only a little girl,
I didn't know what went on in the world around me.
Now to this day, almost four years after you left
I still feel like that same little girl.
I cry alone at night with your jacket wrapped around me tightly,
Still wondering why did he take you away from me.

All the wounds haven't finished healing daddy. What am I to do now that you can't fix them?

Would you be proud of me if you saw my scars?
The needle marks in my arms?
The blade marks on my wrists?
Or how about the scars from broken beer bottles?
I didn't mean to say I loved him daddy,
I'm only human.
I didn't mean to do all those nasty things daddy,
My friends said it would make me feel better.

I only have one more question for you,
Am I still the beautiful little girl you remember?