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I sit heremy eyes wide open
gazing at the bright screen before me
the problem is
i am thinking of the past
i am thinking of the people of
my past.
and what i should have done
i should have kissed him
i should have stopped talking about the bird
i should have just let the racing thoughts go while
on the mountaintop with them
i should have stopped prodding them
i should have kept myself from getting my hopes up.
i should have stopped hurting people
i should have stopped myself from liking them
i should have been more honest with my feelings
i should have stopped being her third wheel
i should have stopped her while it was just beginning
i should have been loved
i should have been noticed
i should have been me
but i couldn't do anything about myself
i can now
i can shape my destiny
and be who i want to be
and as i fall asleep
i start to plan my new self
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