I will not change

I walk through the halls; to the store
I ride from my house to a friends
Curious eyes burn into me
Why do they look at me?
I am no different then anyone else
Yet they look at me as if I am
Is it because I am not dressed like a girl?
Or maybe because I don't act like a girl?
If that's the case
Then so what?
If a guy can act like a girl; a girl can act like a guy
What's the big deal?
But it doesn't matter what they think
Because I am me
And my mom is OK with me being a tomboy
But all of a sudden that changed

It was my sixteenth birthday party
I was opening presents
I see this girly shirt that I do not like from my mom
She said that I needed to have some "girly things" in my closet
So I shrugged it off
Then more and more came
I hated them all
I wanted to gag
My grandmother got me a dressy shirt
She told me I am being forced to keep it
Incase if I wanted to get dressed up
I looked at her as if she ate a skunk
Like that will ever happen
I hate getting dressed up
But whatever I will still take the shirt
It's not like I have a choice
The next day I try on the outfits
I don't really like them but I say I kinda do
Just to make them shut up
They all say that I'm a girl
That my style needs to change
I need to look like a girl instead of a boy

All these words sink into me
Like a vipers poisioness fang
They were all fine with me being me
Now all of a sudden they are trying to change me
"Wal-Mart doesn't have your clothes anymore so you're style is going to have to change"
Why can't I just shop in the boy section?
I like their clothes
But no they want to change me
Into this girly girl
Someone I am not
Why can't they see that I am me?
I'm not going to change
No matter how much they want me to
I am always going to be me
Wether they like it or not
I honestly don't care

The tears flow
I can't believe that they are trying to change me
My own mother
My friends
My family
All trying to change me
I always thought they would support me
No matter what
And accept me for who I am
But I guess not
It really hurts
When reality slaps you across the face
But I am going to be strong
I will not change
No matter what they say!

Poem by jbsavedmylife

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