More poems by Breaking.Conformity.

Love and Catastrophe

You took my heart when I looked in your eyes
Seeing your misery behind your disguise
All I wanted to do was make it go away
So I went and I found the right words to say

You were mine, mine to keep, you held me tight
You were in my dreams each and every night
And the walls you built up, I tried to knock down
I guess it worked, cuz you kept me around.

But now you're closing the walls, and shutting me out
Not listening when I tearfully shout
I don't know how to break them down again
I wish I had broken them way back when

I'm knocking and pleading to let me in
Stop letting all your insanity win
When the walls are down, you're my world and my song
But when they're up, it's then that things go wrong.

You say I shut you out, but you shut me out, too
When it's me, I'm finding what to say to you
But when I'm talking to you, you don't hear a thing
I'm running out of pretty words to bring.

I'm so sick of watching you hide from me
Tired of all your insanity
Can't you, for once, just let yourself go
Stop thinking of the past you know

Just let me in, please, don't leave me outside
Cuz you've done this every single time I've tried
I'm your voice of reason, to calm your pain
But right now my pillow is covered in tear stains

Cuz you've shut me down, you've pushed me away
Everything's changed within three days
And suddenly, I'm becoming part of the past
Our relationship suddenly isn't going to last

You don't want me to leave, and I don't, really
But you're so blind to my love, you can't really see
I'm not like the others, I'm not trying to hurt you
But there's not many other options to choose.

I'm tired of being hurt by not hearing your voice
This is the now, and this is my choice
It's not my fault anymore that our relationship's hurt
You're the one treating it like it's worthless like dirt.

You're not trying to, I know, but my patience is dead
All my thoughts are jumbled inside of my head
I thought you were better, I thought I had changed you
But you really can't be helped, nor changed great, can you?

I thought I was your angel, but apparently I'm not
It's just what you made me think that you thought
And I'm sorry for what's becoming of us,
but all that we're going through is making life rough.

So maybe it's time to put off all but one
No way to undo what's already been done
I can't think of anything that needs more than this
We can't even share one more final kiss...

Cuz you're trouble and a catastrophe, but the love in my heart
All this crap that's gone on has torn me apart
I still love you, but come on, what's happened is done
But really, you're still the only one.