Were You Holding Hands When My Wrists Bled?

Its been so long since I’ve seen you
And now that we’ve come face-to-face
What do you have to say?
A small greeting and “how have you been?”
While my heart is fucking screaming
All the things I’ve never had the courage to say
Do you really want to know how I’ve been?
I’ve been fucking miserable
But I can’t tell you that
Because then you’ll ask “why?”
And I can’t lie to you
I just shrug my shoulders; technically not a lie
And ask you the same
Secretly dying while you tell me
How in love you two are
How Ellie is the only girl for you
How you can tell her fucking everything
That’s what I thought you told me
Everything
What other lies have you told me?
Was it “you’re a great person”?
How about “you’ll always be my friend”?
I bet is was “you’re beautiful, quit doubting yourself”
Or is everything you’ve told me a fucking lie?
You must be blind not to see the tears in my eyes
When you mention her name
But you can talk about her for hours
Without running out of good things to say
You can only talk about me like that
For one second
The best second of my life

Poem by Sisky Biz.

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